20th
sleepover at Sophie's house was fun. watched So You Think You Can Dance for the very first time. i like that Ben guy, is it? but he got kicked out! AAAAAAAh. he's so comical, i like.(:
& later we watched America's Next Top Model and played dai ti.

Sophia's dog is so smelly laaaaaaa but cute. Bob dog(actually his name is Bobby(sp?) but i thought calling him Bob dog would be cute:D) went up to the last floor with us and sat outside while we were inside talking. he wanted to come in! haha. and Sarah had to drag him down. Eudora is such a big S. she loves to off the lights whenever i'm in the toilet. she pleaded with me not to do the same to her and i was like OK & i also helped her hold the door! she took really long and i couldn't wait then she accused me of peeping at her so i went to lock the door from outside and off the lights. HAHA :p
i couldn't stop laughing and i was being really stupid :/ sleepover was funnnnnn.

youth camp 21st-24th
some stupid stuff happened on the first day. we stopped talking to each other and behaved so distant. there wasn't any badmouthing just that it was awkward for us to start talking again. i felt really hurt. like really really. i totally lost my appetite :(
i wanted sooooooo much to cry out but i kept telling myself that i must stay strong. but i finally let it all out on the 2nd night of worship. somehow i got asked by Uncle Mark to stand behind her to catch her if she falls. i felt that 22nd sermon relate to me. that is to give all our hurts to God. to "love your enemies, bless those who curse you. do good to those who hurt you and pray for those who despise you".

Still by Hillsongs made me cry. i could seriously feel God's presence. its as though he is talking to me through the song.. silly me, stop crying :'(

Hide me now, under Your wings
Cover me, within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You, above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God

Find rest my soul, in Christ alone
Know His power, in quietness and trust


Aunt Mary prayed for me and i couldn't stop crying. i felt everything was unfair. so unfair to me and that no one seems to bother bout how i feel so why am i always caring bout how others will feel?
she said i'm sensitive to people's feelings but sometimes people just seem so insensitive to mine. God told me to let go off all the burdens i'm carrying for my friends. weird thing is, i don't even know i'm carrying my friends' burdens... God told me He loves me and that He cares even though at times i feel no one does. all along, He was right beside me. one thing that made me smile was when Aunt Mary told me that God already have a lifelong partner for me. someone who really loves God deeply and serve Him. (: guess who? i don't even knowwwwwww. now i'm really curious :D

later she came over to me and apologise for everything. she told me God asked her to apologise to me. she looked back on all those nice things i've done for her and felt sorry. we were actually crying cos of one another! we really missed teasing one another. thanks to all those who comforted me, hugged Sophia real tight and cried. sorry for wetting part of your shirt Sophieee & sorry for making you cry. you said if i were to just talk to you during the Duolos trip, you'll be so happy that you'll talk to me till i get fed up. hah but i guess we were both waiting for someone to make the first move. so.....in conclusion, don't wait! if you wanna talk to the person or something just do it laaaaa. like who knows, maybe that person is waiting? OK, crap.

he's so sweeeeet.(: heh. I AM MYSELF IN FRONT OF HIM. first time OK! like i never felt like this before.... its only my heart will beat really fast whenever he's nearrrrrr. and i'm super shy to talk to him la. i'll stutter :z & then it will be so so so so so soooooooo embarrassing. goodness! so many people keep teasing me bout starstarstar and now i'm very afraid more & more people will know! :z

MY TEAM GOT FIRST PLACE. YAY! YAY! YAY! :D
GOOOOOOOOOO STARPLAYERS! hehe :D i love S.P.F.C(StarPlayers For Christ)!
oh oh! someone said i got charisma -.- & whenever he look at me he'll be reminded of a leader. he told A.Mary bout this and he said she agreed with that. and he will only tell me who's the leader bout 2-3years later cos by that time i.....aiyah, i forgot what he said. HAHA.

i got chided by M when i told my bunkmates that nobody was using the toilet so we could bathe. & she was like 'WALAU! YOU TELL THEM THEN ALOT OF PEOPLE WILL KNOW. HOW ABOUT US?'
she made me felt so bad you know. i keep thinking if what i did was wrong. but later i thought i did the right thing. shoosh, go away if you wanna say i'm in the wrong. LALALA~

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Ahbling got asked by that lady to go for a photoshoot! really hope she won't get cheated. Ahbling, if they ask you to pay for portfolio and all, don't do it okkkkkkk. you'll end up spending more than you earn. like who knows if they're cheat? why call you only after 5months?

slept at 4am yesterday oh...is it today? i'm so so tired. i think its the latest i've ever slept. played pinball on Constance's lappie while the rest were in my room playing cards. i almost fall asleep on the lappie! haha. played table soccer thingy with Eudoraaaa. went into the guys bunk. Asriel and Elmo built their own love nest. John went to disturb them..ahahahhaah! he's so farnieeeee la. i knocked my head onto Titus' bed :( BOOHOOOOOOHOOO. Eudora & rest were playing cards so i went to talk to Michelle, Sherry and Raina. & then 4am, i couldn't take it. K.O
woke up at 7.30 and haven't go to sleep since. surprisingly, i'm not really tired... OK, maybe i was. fell asleep on the way home and almost took the train all the way back to harbour front! :x

gonna sleepover at Sophia's house again tmr. cos we're having cell meeting! hmm. so i'll see her for a whole week! haha. mon,tue,wed,thurs,fri,sat,sun!!~

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i wanna look through a person's heart and see how true they are. i don't like it when people act nice one moment and blahblahblah the next. it scares me :( people changes really fast. don't like, don't smile, don't talk. thats why sometimes i don't like talking to people i dislike unless i really have to :/
friends change. usually they change into everything they said they wouldn't be. you just have to accept it, and realize everyone changes in their lifetime. the challenge is to stay friends, and prove to everyone that friendships can last through anything.

we seem to have different views. sigh. does this mean..................